I remember it like it was yesterday. Years ago, my sister developed a passion for Reiki. She was attending to some Reiki meetings. You know, when you are dealing with Reiki, you proceed by stages under the guidance of a master. My sister did so. I remember myself in those days. The responses I used to give her. I just found it funny. I didn’t believe, I was just laughing, I even did maybe the worst thing and made fun of my sister just because of her own beliefs in the spritiuality. Kids can be very cruel at times. Especially female siblings :)
I went on making fun and her own friends just didn’t believe and gave no support. I remember how my mother and I chortling..Time! Honestly it’s interesting! Now I remember and I just smile at that little girl, of course a very soft smile, it has nothing to do with being cynical. :) I smile at my disbelief in the notion, disrespect and dogmatizing attitude. Do you remember my first writing that I talk about people who always criticize me? Maybe this is my Karma. Who knows? :)
Sometimes either my mother or I had a headache. But I who was studying at the natural sciences department, unaware of self-improvement or spirituality at all, couldn’t enjoy those moments when a sort of heat used to get into my head from my sister’s hands. Now I’m found guilty of disbelief. :) Quantum theory makes it clear enough. Everything that we see or not, we hear or not, we make contact with or not, everything is energy. Our ideas, feelings, the scenarios that we’ve been writing for our lives, our dreams, studies, successes and every step we take are energy. Scary, isn’t it?
For whom?
Yes, I’m asking that. For whom is it scary?
For EGO.
Mine is being continuously upside-down every day, what else it could do? :)
Today we’ve talked about EGO with one of my friends. I told the same things which I’m going to say right at the moment. Self-improvement requires courage. It is a path only adventurous people can dare and struggle with EGO to set off the claims that the self and EGO have and get out of the path without being hurt or demoralized.
These days everybody is conscious of the presence of EGO in self. If I ask our doorkeeper Fevzi though, he will probably start talking about the natural gas or the public transportation system :) ( Public transportation buses are belong to an authority called EGO)
I’ve just had a look at the books so far, to illustrate EGO in the best way. Yet, I quit. As all the things I mention here are my own experience, I think I should communicate my own understanding of EGO in my own words. Naturally all the books I’ve read and the information that has made me conscious will guide me.
I think I will do it through giving several examples.
You meet a wonderful guy, spend good time, he’s seriously attracted to you and interested in you, make small surprises to keep the emotion stabilized, in fact it is the love you’ve been seeking so far. But something bothers you. You can trust him by no means. And you end the relationship face-to-face, or through a letter, or a phone call, or a text message or an e-mail. Maybe you write on his facebook wall so that everyone can see how humiliated he is. :) Or, you just don’t inform him and change your relationship status. Somehow or other he won’t care! And if your message is communicated to the other side, it is usually saying it has to end because I’ve been hurt so many times and you’ll definitely upset me! Guess what, he gets the shock of his life! Oh my God! :)
Self-improvement books...Well..Very thought provoking..I must get one and have a look at. But, I don’t believe in such things indeed. Auntie Arzu used to read such books, however, she is still single, hasn’t been promoted, lives with her mother and she is always scowling. I was guided with Aunt Arzu’s story and overgeneralized it and concluded that the books are useless no doubt. Anyway, I picked one and start reading. Ah, it goes well. Okay...Right..Suddenly I feel a strong desire to go on. Come on! Stop it! Is it going to work for you? Come on! Think further. Millions of people have read those books and no miracle happened! Exercising? What is that? I know only several of them. Go walking, jogging, go to the park and play with the sports equipment there, or go swimming! Just quit reading this bullshit!
You want to be promoted to a better position. You work hard. You read a lot and you do your best. Seriously? In my opinion there is no such thing as doing one’s best. Everytime you can do better and better. But sometimes some things limit you. I can’t do further than that! This is what I can do. I do my best. I can’t do better because that’s my capacity. In fact, no matter how hard I work, since I am not a flatterer, it’s not possible to get promotion. Then why should I force myself to work for a better future? Work according to the standards, that’d do. Being satisfied? What is that? Are you going to save the world? Why are you bothering yourself this much? Just lay down, watch some TV and learn what’s going on around the world. What did government do, did how many people kill how many others? How many people died just because of traffic accidents? Receive world’s news. Somebody might ask about something very popular, you should give an answer in order not to be labelled as ignorant.
I think I could make myself clear.
We have some very rigid thoughts, beliefs and values. That’s why our EGO, which makes us feel like a very famous celebrity, tries to protect us from everything. It tries to keep us away from love because it is love which causes us to get hurt and cry. It prevents us from working more and taking action because we’re not going to get what we want from work and we will probably be frustrated. It stops you when you take interest in self-improvement since the idea is a bullshit and you do not need another one because the world is full of ridiculous things.
That’s absolutely why self-improvement loves courage! The idea is close only to people who could dare and those people could achieve since they dare to believe. If in the world any man ever did it, I could do as well. You also could do. Everyone can! The important thing is: take action, discipline and do not forget to include self-confidence.
If you ever set out to achieve a goal next time, if you hear somebody’s calling Stop! and making some excuses, it is enough to be aware...
For example, if you see me walking on the road and talking to myself, please don’t be surprised. I haven’t gone insane, just chatting with my EGO. :)
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