Heartbreaks..

If they ask me..
Have you ever broken somebody’s heart?
My answer would be Yes.

What if they ask me..
Has your heart ever been broken?
My answer would remain the same.

Then, is there anybody who hasn’t broken your heart?

My answer would confuse some since my answer is Yes! There are a lot of beings out there who haven’t broken my heart in any way.

Millions of people out there are ready to break my heart everywhere at every moment. I get on the bus every morning and say good morning to the driver and some of the passengers but I receive none. I immediately sulk and start grumbling. I am polite and I say good morning and I don’t deserve it back. What’s happening to people? Well then, what happened to the doorkeeper who always sees me off with a very sincere good morning? How can I forget so easily? Or, what happened to the cheerful stray dog, which is being described as unlikable by some of my friends, that is always there at the corner of the street every morning to play with me and see me off?

Sometimes I am just hurt by one of my colleagues. Maybe she doesn’t greet me, or speaks to me sharply, or tells something I would never like. Maybe she criticizes, maybe I want her to let me be, but she can’t do that. Or, well, she does something that disturbs me. Then, I am broken and ruined. The shiny day that I promised to have turns out to be a very distasteful one to me. Yet, there are other colleagues in the same office and they do nothing wrong. The young man at the cafeteria smiles again and wishes me a very bright day. The doorkeeper of the building does really care about me and ask about my health and how I feel. The security guard at the entrance wishes me good morning smiling. But my day has already turned out to be a very bad one!

When I walk home, somebody on the street is very careless and cause me to fall down. What is more, although he is the one to be blamed, when I say be careful more please, he just calls me down more as if I am the guilty and careless one! Of course I am hurt because of his treatment and the bad words that he utters. Yet, there is just somebody who tries to help me and see if I am okay. He just tells me to calm down because there are such men everywhere. He really takes care of me and checks whether I am hurt or not. But, I’m still very angry with the other man! I can’t see these efforts. I might even grumble to this helpful man that I’m okay and he should just let me go!

Oh relationships! Women and Men ! Ying and Yang!

My boyfriend who does not call me regularly breaks my heart. How could he not call? I am angry because he does not care about me. He just doesn’t try to understand me and that really hurts. He doesn’t say good words to me and I am broken. He forgets our special and important days. Boo! He just forgot my birthday! Yet, a lot of people called me that day and I was too angry to somebody else to answer those phone calls. My parents just try to take care of me and I just say enough, leave me alone resentfully. Or, that day my friends, neighbours and the kid who works at the grocery store told me how gorgeous I look! Who cares? My boyfriend isn’t just there!

Can we see our focal point of events? There are a lot of things that do not hurt us out there during the day. Nature would never hurt you! The trees, flowers, birds and plants. They are always there and they have not broken any heart so far. The lottery man on the street has never broken my heart. My dog which I share my flat with has never hurt me at all. My neighbour, who paid a very short visit to ask for a spare cigarette yesterday night, has never made me feel bad. The woman whom I chat with sometimes and who lives in the apartment building that is across mine has never hurt me. Now I’m listening to Şebnem Ferah. (A famous Turkish rock star). Her latest album is just great! And I think she has never broken my heart. Etc.

So, if there is a lesson to be learned, and if I speak seriously, or even I am a statistical expert, no I am not, if I draw some tables and create diagrams.. If I confront the number of people who have never hurt me to the ones who made me feel terrible at times...

I would say..

The world is just so beautiful ! :)